“I knew you before I formed you in your mother’s womb. Before you were born I set you apart and appointed you as my prophet to the nations.”
God sees our entire existence, from before conception to the end of our days here on earth. He knows your triumphs and failures before you’ve accomplished them. But still he loves you and pursues you as one of his greatly loved children, not wanting you to choose the path of destruction. Be comforted that God chases after you and thankful that Christ died for you.